.....like i said, i dint think about that and so i was at a loss for what exactly to do. I chose not to be scared, i stayed. This guy(and all guys in general) was experienced. Looking back now, i realize that he could see my innocence, my confusion, my uncertainty and then my curiosity, right in my eyes. I stayed. Lol. Conversation turned into whispers and whoosh, he was kissing me.. "OmG. Tochukwu, what are you doing?" I screamed in my head. I didn't stop him. I wanted to know what people felt that entangled them for life. Soon enough, i did, i understood, i knew. However, in all those bursts of emotions (and of course hormones) i kept hearing the alarm as it went off right within my soul. I saw those who look up to me, i saw my dream of a relationship(i wouldn't see it if this was it right?), i even saw those who mocked my conviction of remaining chaste and i pushed him away. I haven't had this experience again and i still haven't dated. I used to get confused and lonely, you know those times well you just want someone by your side, but i have come to understand the fast that: * just because i'm single doesn't mean i'm abnormal or allergic to guys( or worse gay!), it means i know exactly what i want and i don't to go through various 'trials and errors' to get it(i ain't no lab. rat). * i can invest in myself so when God sends me my "personal MR.", my relationship will be blissful. By the way, #KHC has been such a blessing and i encourage to read as well as share. * i have all the time now to serve God as i channel my emotions and passions into the spread of the gospel and service in the house of God. * there's extra time to watch and learn(lol to the things i see and hear everyday). A wise man said and i quote: EXPERIENCE IS NOT THE BEST TEACHER, THE WORD OF GOD IS!!!! Oh, how i believe those words. * God is the best lover i can ever have(and that's that), so when i feel alone i think about Him and then i know i'm9 not alone. Tochukwu, i later found out was(or still is, i don't know) a smoker and a sex addict. Did i mention he was from my church? I never judged him for one minute(and you shouldn't) and i pray for him but i know what God saved me from and being single obviously means He's being saving me from a lot more(yes ooh, my Daddy has got my back). Lol, i really have to learn to lessen my use of brackets ooh. Young lady, young man, you who is holding on to your conviction so loosely now because you look around you and it seems no one else believes anymore, I AM HERE( na all us of dey hia). Don't stop believing!......